I hate having to write negative posts on my blog but I think it is time that I be honest with you lovely lot.
It has been two years since I graduated, within that time I have manged to create a blog and gain some more work experience in journalism and a little in marketing.
Feeling like a failure
But you know what I haven’t achieved yet? A career… I feel like such a failure because I have not managed to get a job within two years. Yes I work part time, so I do have some fiances coming in- but I don’t want to be always working part time in retail.
I would love to get a job in the media- something that I have studied for.
Like I said before I have only had one experience of working in marketing, with a company called Marketing Cheshire and I really loved it. It was doing experience with them that made me want to go into that industry.
Since then I have been trying to get more experience so I can it do my CV and then hopefully get a job in it. The trouble is, every company that I want experience with has either 0 time for me and has not replied. And try as I am, there is still no more news of me getting any work experience.
I have even started to contact and network with people directly on LinkedIn and I am grateful for the advice and I am putting it into practice it’s just not happening for me,
I am not going to lie, it is really tough I mean I am supposed to get a job if I can’t get the experience as I need experience to get a job. It’s a viscous circle.
All Time Low
Speaking of viscous, my emotions has definitely had a impact on me not being able to achieve my goals. I feel like a total waste of space right now and I don’t like it.
Everyday I get up, get ready, get dressed, eat, write a blog, watch TV, exercise, apply for jobs/work experience , eat and then sleep. And I am not happy with this, I want to do something with my day, have a routine and have a proper job but at the moment I don’t have that and if I am honest it isn’t good for me.
Yes, I may seem all positive on my social media but I do have times when I am at an all time ow and I feel like there is no point in getting up because I have nothing to do.
What’s the plan now?
Well I have no idea, all I know is that I can’t sit here and mope around- I have to do something about it.
I have thought about contacting local businesses and offering my services to them, just to add to my CV so I can build up my experience. Or packing this silly dream of getting a job in the media away for good.
I have thought about maybe setting my own business up (though I don’t know what in) but maybe that is the way the way forward. If I can’t join them, maybe I should beat them and go solo and so it all by myself. I see loads of people I know go it alone and they are happy with their life and their business so perhaps that is what I need to do?
Either way I can’t sit here anymore and bang my head on a brick wall, I have to find a way to be able to jump over it.
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