It has been a couple of years now since I graduated and if I am honest life after graduation has not been what I thought it would be.
If I am honest, I didn’t know what I was going to do after graduation I just hoped that I will get a good job in media. So off I was, applying for jobs and more work experiences and as you know I was not enjoying journalism work experience and it put me off wanting a job in it.
So I applied for PR and Marketing work experience and I really enjoyed it and I knew I wanted to work in that industry. It gave me such a buzz and a feeling of accomplishment that I knew what I wanted to do.
But it all went down hill from there, work experiences and applying for roles was not happening. No matter how many times I contacted companies- I was going no where. Seeing all my fellow graduates get jobs was making me feel low and ashamed, seeing everyone else achieve still affects my feelings.
At the moment, I am currently working part time in retail and still blogging. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy my part time job but it isn’t what I want to do and I feel embarrassed that I am still there and not achieving what I want to achieve.
It would be great if I could get paid from Gemma’s Journey and make it a business but I have no idea how to do that.
Not being happy or successful after graduation makes me feel pretty rubbish I have to be honest. And I am trying to keep positive but every time I apply for jobs, a little piece of me is thinking rejection, rejection, rejection. Like why am I trying to apply for these jobs when I know I am going to get rejected. Don’t get me wrong I still apply for them but with a feeling of low self asteem.
I know, well I can only hope that I won’t be stuck like this forever and if I keep writing and applying then I will get somewhere eventually.
It just a shame that my journey has happened this way and if I had known this before graduation I may have changed my course or thought about doing a masters.