You will know that I currently work part-time in retail and it has its ups and downs especially during the festive period. And it can be stressful for both customer and the worker.
When I have stressful days my anxiety goes through the roof, there is a little voice in my head that is crying out for help and is wondering how I am coping and if I am doing a good job.
I have recently transferred locations within the company and I put myself under a lot of pressure. If I make a mistake or I can’t complete a task or achieve a target etc then my anxiety starts and continues throughout the day till I get home.
I start to worry and think of all of the outcomes as to what could happen as a result of my mistakes and I really think about the OTT outcomes and really wind myself up.
My anxiety kicks in when I am serving customers, I start doubting myself if I am doing the right thing or giving them the right option. If I think the customer is of high class then I start to lower myself and turn inwards, as if I am not good enough to serve this amazing customer.
My voice starts telling me that I am not good enough and again that transpires into low self-esteem and confidence. So when I finish my shift and I am at home I feel rubbish.
I wish there a turn off switch for this voice in my head as it is not helpful at work.