Worried about the Future

I wrote a post about being positive about the future but the truth is, I feel like there are also negatives too.

I am worried about my career, it looks like I will lose my part-time job and I am struggling to find another one.  So I need to work hard at my marketing journey so I can try and find a full-time career in the industry that I want to get into.

But that will be hard, it won’t happen straight away so I need to find something in the meantime and if that does not happen then I will have no job. I have volunteer opportunities and hobbies to keep me busy but I am used to having a schedule and a routine, without that I have no idea what I will do.

I have no idea what the future will look like. In my dream, the potential loss of my job will make me stronger than ever and I will turn into a businesswoman. Or perhaps a woman who is happy in my job, in a full-time job in marketing or even as a yoga teacher as a side career.

But I think the reality is going to be a dark and uncertain one, I think I am going to be jobless, with no routine and be stuck at home all day every day.  Will that every day be normal? What will this new normal look like? There are so many unknowns and to me that is scary.

I am sorry for being negative but this lockdown is really getting to me and having a massive impact on everything and sometimes I struggle to see a light at the end of the tunnel.